[The Interlude]

end of an era

lauriie — Sun, 02 Jan 2011 11:40:48 +0000

So the end of another year. Sometimes it was good and sometimes it was bad but I’m never going to regret any of it. I don’t think enough people embrace change, and I think that’s what this year was about. I lived in house with two girlfriends, and it was definitely an experience – but living in a house with my two girlfriends meant that I met Rach; and my god I cannot thank my lucky stars enough for her.

I also changed degrees and after spending the last semester settling into International Studies, I know I’ve found my place. I’ve cemented the direction I want to take in life, and I’ve also cemented the idea that I have to move to Melbourne in order to achieve it. And I think that whilst 2010 was a year for change, 2011 is going to be the year of adventure. Moving back to the big smoke, tackling third year university and really starting to focus on my up and coming adult life. Employment. The propper full-time kind. Holy shit. It’s daunting, yeah, but my god I can’t wait to finally get out there and make something of myself.

Geelong is a black hole. It fills your head with static so you can’t think individual thought. People know everyone through someone else. It’s incestuous. Your past haunts you because there are too many deadshits here who don’t have enough promise to fulfill their own lives, so they refuse to let the past go. Yeah some of my best friends and my immediate family are here. I never said everyone in Geelong was hopeless. Sometimes I actually find myself enjoying the sunsets down by the river, and the 15 minute drive to some of the most beautiful beaches in the world. But this place isn’t for me. It never was.

And whilst I’ll come home occasionally, and I’ll remember the good times, and value this town as housing some of the most important moments of my life; I know that I have the whole world at my feet, and that’s where my life is going to take me.

2011 is going to be a good year. I can feel it.

i like being with people and everything;

lauriie — Sat, 04 Dec 2010 10:10:19 +0000

but sometimes, on balmy nights like this;
all one needs is a couple of good quality beers and a few cigarettes,
to indulge in peace and quiet.

Oh P.S. Got tickets to Kings of Leon.
Fucking win.

i’m smiling

lauriie — Mon, 29 Nov 2010 11:57:07 +0000

I’m smiling because I’ve watched the events of the last two weeks unfold and I’ve only met it with relative apathy. And I’ve realised that I think I’m at the point where I simply don’t care about you anymore.

Because I have him. And whilst we may be unconventional and not-quite-legitimate, I do not care because every time I see him he does something you never could.

He makes me happy.

things i know that you don’t

lauriie — Sun, 28 Nov 2010 23:35:25 +0000

1. I could steal him from you in a heartbeat if I wanted to. You have absolutely no idea, do you? The things we tell each other, the proverbial line that gets a little blurry when we’re too drunk. I feel bad, I do, knowing that while he’s supposed to be focused completely on you, his eyes are trailing away, to make sure he can see me and know where I am. And he’ll smile and I’ll smile back, because we share a secret. But I do feel bad. …I just don’t feel bad enough to stop.

2. She’ll break you. You think this is going to work two worlds apart? It won’t. You’re an idealist but you need to be a realist. And the problem is that when it all does fall apart and everything equates to nothing, I won’t be there to fix you.

3. You’ll regret not coming with us. Sure, you’ll save a little money and you won’t have to deal with responsibility anymore; but when you see the photos, hear the stories.. You’ll wish you’d taken the leap. You’ll get angry that we don’t come back more, but in the end you’ll just feel alone.

4. You love me. And that’s okay, because I love you too. And I know you’re scared and I know you feel guilty because of her, but things are going to work out for the best. Whether it be sooner or later everything is gonna be alright. And how do I know this? Because one way or another, we’re the forever kind of people and so nothing is gonna stop us.

even if it kills me;

lauriie — Sun, 28 Nov 2010 09:16:42 +0000

I am getting tickets to Kings of Leon. They’re touring Australia in March and playing 2 gigs at Rod Laver. I don’t care how, but I am going. I will sell my fucking car, I’ll sell my own mother. I missed out on their last tour and I pretty much died; I am not going through that again.

VIP presale tickets come out on Dec 2nd and I am allowed a maximum of four. Me, Kat & Rach are confirmed, Jordan may be the fourth. So tempted to just buy four tickets anyway, I’m 100% sure I’d sell it to a friend, or on eBay.

…And yes as soon I got home I chucked on their live DVD and I’m now sitting here basking in their raw glory. Whatever.

You shimmy-shook my bones,
Leaving me stranded all in love on my own.
-Closer

You know that I could use somebody,
Someone like you.
-Use Somebody

If it’s not forever,
If it’s just tonight,
Oh it’s still the greatest,
The greatest.
-Sex on Fire

I never cried when I was feeling down,
I’ve always been scared of the sound.
Jesus don’t love me, no one ever carried my load,
I’m too young to feel this old.
-Cold Desert

She said call me now baby,
And I’d come a-runnin’.
-On Call

I just wanna be there,
When you’re all alone.
Thinking ’bout a better day,
When you had it in your bones.
This could be the end.
-The End

I, I won’t ever be your cornerstone.
-Pyro

You told me you loved me,
That I’d never die alone.
Hand over your heart, let’s go home.
Everynoe’s noticed, everyone’s seen the signs.
I’ve always been known to cross lines.
-Cold Desert

You know you could’ve been a wonder,
Takin’ your circus to the sky.
You couldn’t take it on the tight rope,
No, you had to take it on the side.
-Red Morning Light

don’t tempt me

lauriie — Wed, 24 Nov 2010 11:02:36 +0000

because if you do, I’ll bite off your head and chew it,
crunching your skull with my toughened teeth;
and spit out the chunks and shards at your feet.

Don’t you dare think I won’t.

I hate needlessly bitchy people.

You know what, if being a spiteful cow makes you feel better, then fine.
But only hiss and spit behind a person’s back because they deserve it;
not just to make you feel more important.

Because you’re not.

oh shoot me, just shoot me

lauriie — Tue, 23 Nov 2010 13:17:54 +0000

So, told her about the prospect of having a hawaiin themed luau for new years. …In the span of five minutes she’d already gone completely OTT. Seriously. SERIOUSLY. Just.. Chill the fuck out.

In other news, I sometimes think I miss him, but most of the time I think I don’t. We’ll see whether his word actually holds true and he brings me something home. …Though I just get the feeling that regardless, this is the end.

I want more work because I’m sick of living in trivialties. I want the real world, now.

the burning years

lauriie — Sun, 21 Nov 2010 07:00:19 +0000

Mmm, what you say?
Mm, that you only meant well?
Well, of course you did.
Mmm, what you say?
Mm, that it’s all for the best?
Of course it is.
Mmm, what you say?
Mm, that it’s just what we need?
And you decided this.

Mm, what did you say?

i am ACTUALLY going insane.

lauriie — Tue, 16 Nov 2010 10:03:29 +0000

No, you’re not the bigger person. You’re talking about being nice to a girl you hate because you think it will eat her up inside. That’s not being the bigger person, that’s being a spiteful bitch. Being the bigger person is talking to her because you know you need to move forward, that resentment is only unhealthy and that whatever she may have done, she is still human.

i like this

lauriie — Tue, 16 Nov 2010 08:58:40 +0000

“If you asked me how many times you’ve crossed my mind, I’d say once;
because you never really left.”

“The greatest pleasure in life is doing what people say you cannot do.”

Wantwantwantwant.

I have a huge girl-crush on Florence Welch.

I’m seriously tempted to get a new tat. Maybe;
“Inside all of us is a wild thing.”

I don’t know. I think it’s adorable but it could be taken badly.

“I’ve seen more spine in jellyfish.”
OHSNAP.

I want this painted on the wall of the house I end up with.